What if I was a cyborg?

This thought just came to mind randomly today - what if I was a human machine? Perhaps it was something to do with the question that I asked one of my seniors earlier on - what would you do if you could change into the opposite sex for one day?


Cyborgs. It is a human-resembling machine. Outside, all the skin and features are human, but inside is all machinery. Probably the most popular image that pops up when 'cyborg' is mentioned is Terminator. That's a little too macho for me.


Instead, what came to mind was more of Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex cyborg, or perhaps Treasure Planet cyborg. An image that came to mind was the picture for a single called Moonlight, by she (recommended by previously mentioned senior). Although I know the image is just a photo of a girl, with montage layered on top, it still gives the feeling that she's a cyborg.


To be honest, I really don't know what would happen if I were a cyborg. I would be completely computer programmed, for sure, but would I be a villain, a hero, or a mediocre, just-existing cyborg?


How would I look like? Would I look exactly like I am right now, or would I be "perfected" - skin, features, proportions? Would I have appearance changing functions? Would my skin be human tissue, like the Terminator's, or would I have non-biological skin?


Would I be able to see something, and recognize the compositions of an item? Would I be able to detect a lie from truth when uttered? Would I be like Achilles, who had no weakness but that on his ankle?


Would I be loved by all, or alienated like Edward Scissorhands? Would I be able to feel emotion as humans do?

Two wrongs don't make a right

This was a theory I learned from my Critical and Creative Thinking subject last semester. It basically means that if you do something wrong that other people are also doing, it doesn't make you right. For example, your friend is cheating in a test (EXAMPLE ONLY), but it doesn't justify your cheating as well.


No comprendo? Like if everyone is killing other people, it doesn't make you right to kill people. Comprende?


The same rule applies to relationships - if someone hurts you, it doesn't make you right to hurt them back. Ever heard of the proverb, "the higher you climb, the harder you will fall"? Exactly what just happened to me.


For three months my hopes were kept up, when in actual fact by now I should have let go and moved on already.


Guys and girls, if you don't love a person anymore, make it clear that they know about it. Never play around with their feelings, and make them feel that they still have a chance with you (if they do want to). Telling them to just let go and move on will hurt them much less, than when you keep putting it off so that "you won't hurt them".


Trust me, it hurts much less when you let them know right away.

Everything is finally said.


After 3 months of endless torture, everything is finally over.

Impromptu dinner

It's seldom that I go out alone with a guy (except with the boyfriend, whom, at this time, is non-existent), except when it's to catch up with old friends.


Now when I mean old, I mean old. Like I've known him since primary school. Unless you count the one who has known me since I was in kindergarten (but have lost touch with him), he along with Cassandra, Yu Ning and Chiu Yee are my oldest friends.


The dinner was supposed to be with another girl, who wanted to stay at home to accompany her mum, so it became a two person dinner. At Domino's. Which didn't provide dine-in services, actually, but we had out dinner there anyway.

From left clockwise: regular Classic Hand-Tossed Classified Chicken pizza, Breadstix with anonymous sauce, garlic cheese onion rings, and lousy chicken lasagna.

We ordered the set - regular Classified Chicken, Breadstix, 2 Pepsis, and added on a chicken lasagna, and garlic cheese onion rings. The pizza was oh-so-cheesy, the Breadstix were delectable, the garlic cheese onion rings were heavenly, but when we opened the lasagna...

Miserable chunk of lasagna. The pasta was soggy.

We kinda expected it to fill out the edges at the least, if not with cheese sticking on the lid. And it looked so... dry. It turned out to be slightly less than mediocre. RM11 gone, just like that.


By the end of that meal, we were full to the brim already. We took a short walk, and ended up having drinks at Chatime.


He had sent me a link to a yaoi anime earlier today. Yaoi means guy romance. This particular episode talked about how these two half-brothers were fighting over Misaki, and he was sent endless supplies of strawberries, just because he had mentioned that he liked strawberries.

Left: Strawberry Pudding Au Lait; right: Strawberry Chocolate Milk Tea.

Hence, we both ordered strawberry-related drinks. Seriously, I've been to Chatime so many times, I really don't know which drink to choose now that I go there, which is why I tend to just pass. I chose a strawberry chocolate milk tea, which was strange for me, because I seldom like strawberry AND chocolate flavored food.


Didn't turn out nice though - on your palate it's like tea, then strawberry, then weird chocolate, then all mixed together to form a slightly gag-inducing taste.


Just before we set off home, I had to pack some chicken wings from Domino's for my sister, which I almost forgot about. It's really nice to just talk, share things and generally catch up with each other after so long.

雅の誕生日

September 14th is Miyavi's birthday.

After going to the Miyavi live, I've joined a Facebook group exclusively for Malaysian Co-Myvz. Trust me, the people in there are hardcore J-rock fans, and stalk Miyavi.

One of the members posted a link to the International Co-Myvz Crew Tumblr page, in which they wrote that they planned to make a video with the theme "Miyavi is...", and send it to him on his birthday. I purposely put on make-up, wrote 'Miyavi' on my cheek, and filmed my entry.

On his birthday, there were so many Miyavi tributes going around, and Miyavi himself was contantly tweeting, and at the end of the day he thanked everyone for their lovely birthday messages.

Also, the international Co-Myvz Crew uploaded the birthday video on Youtube, and sent it to him. He tweeted about it as well~

I watched the video, and I couldn't believe what I saw - my entry was the second one. My segment starts at 0:40, and you can see my plastic-wrapped yukata, and dresses at the back.

Miyavi is the one who made me fall in love with visual kei, and told me all I need to do in life is stay true to myself.

It's amazing - there are so many Co-Myvz all over the world, so many whose lives changed because of him.

Proud to be a 仔雅 !