Beauty

What really constitutes beauty?

I think the typical modern person would describe a perfectly beautiful person as having perfect features and a perfect heart. To those people - I'm sorry, you're living in fantasyland. Although such people do exist, it's quite hard to find them.

My definition of beauty is self-confidence and physique. Being the child who was constantly taunted "fat girl" by the entire family has pretty much left me with psychological scars. Most days I look in the mirror and see what I would constitute as "acceptably disgusting".

I had a rain check on myself just now, and noticed that apart from being completely emotional, I'm just a waste of time, money, effort and compassion. I don't have a particular skill in anything and basically just sit around moping and feeling sorry for myself.

I'm not a good daughter.

I'm not a good student.

I'm not a good friend.

Heck, I'm not even a good girlfriend.

Sometimes I seriously wonder whether I was the product of a last-minute decision.